Embracing Moments of Depression
There are times in life when we feel the urge to retreat and hide, moments when we are overwhelmed by feelings of inadequacy. It's as if life holds up a mirror, reflecting back all the ways we feel we aren't good enough—whether in our relationships, our careers, or even in our spiritual practices.
I spoke about this in one of my previous newsletters, where we explored the Pathway of Constriction.
In these moments, it's easy to feel diminished, as though we're falling short of who we want to be. But perhaps there is a hidden wisdom in these experiences. A Sufi guide once said, "Sometimes your worst is good enough." This reminds me of moments with my children at home. I often feel exhausted, yet all they see is their dad, present and spending time with them. In their eyes, even when I'm not at my best, I'm enough.
The same holds true in our relationship with Allah. There are days when our prayers feel hollow, and our acts of worship seem insufficient. Yet, this "divine diminishment" could be Allah's gentle nudge, guiding us to seek His light more earnestly, to find deeper connection beyond the surface. In these times, continuing our worship with introspection and patience journeys us to strength.
Acknowledging these feelings rather than hiding from them can be a profound way to honor our faith and ourselves. We must be willing to explore the unknown corners of our self, much like Mullah Nasruddin's famous story. He searched under a streetlight for his lost keys, even though he knew he had lost them elsewhere. Often, we look for what we've lost in familiar places instead of venturing into new territories of growth and understanding.
Perhaps life is calling you to recognize the voice within that feels diminished by illness, pain, or loss. These feelings do not define your worth. Instead, they invite you to explore new paths and possibilities, to rediscover your inherent strength and resilience.
THIS WEEK: Remember, sometimes your worst is good enough, not only in the eyes of those we love but also in the sight of Allah. Let us embrace our moments of diminishment as opportunities for growth and deeper connection.
If low feelings last for weeks, the NHS explains the symptoms of depression and when to seek help, and the World Health Organization fact sheet on depression gives a wider overview.
Frequently Asked Questions
What is “divine diminishment”?
It is the idea that feeling diminished can be Allah’s gentle nudge to seek His light more earnestly. Reflect on His Names in the 99 Names of Allah Guided Journal.
Is my worst good enough for Allah?
Yes. Just as our children see us as enough even when we are exhausted, sometimes your worst is good enough in the sight of Allah. Read how to spiritually bounce back.
What should I do when my prayers feel hollow?
Keep praying with introspection and patience rather than hiding, because that steadiness journeys us to strength. Read mindfulness of the Prophet for ways to bring presence back.
How can I explore what I am feeling?
Sit with your feelings and write them down honestly, then bring them to Allah. A guided reflection like the 99 Names of Allah Guided Journal gives you a place to start.
What if these low feelings do not pass?
Acknowledge them, keep your worship gentle and speak to someone you trust or a qualified professional. Finding Allah when you feel low offers further support.